September 26th, 2009
I have no idea what it means to be lonely.
Am I being honest? Or am I just thinking something I wish were true?
It seems a simple concept. State of being. A need (a wanting?) of something that cannot be readily met or someone that isn’t there who used to be.
I have conversations with friends sometimes about what loneliness feels like to them. A lot of them respond in the same way. Some say they’re lonely for something specific. Others say they’re lonely for anything. They’ll say “I hate being single.” Or “I really wish I was with someone.”
Me? The thought doesn’t seem to cross my mind. At all. If it happens, neat. If not, I don’t feel upset or sad about it. Does it mean I’m just independent? Or does it mean I’m closed off? Both?
Is missing something or someone the same as loneliness? Or are they just connected?
Oftentimes, when I think about these types of feelings, I wonder whether I grew up poorly and detached from certain human emotions.
Its easy for me to feel some. I feel love often (whether it be for someone, something, an idea, etc). I can feel anger easily (not necessarily often). I can feel need. Jealousy. Happiness. Crazy. But when I think about loneliness, I don’t think I know how that should feel. Did this come from growing up with my father? A man so disconnected from people and the complete range of human emotions, it should be criminal.
Instead of saying “I love you” at the end of our conversations, he says “lots of love”.
Now that I think of it, I cannot remember a time where he’s ever said “I love you.” At least, not to me.
When someone isn’t near me that I wish was, I feel I miss them. Am I lonely for them? How is that defined? What does it include?
I find that the closest thing I feel close to loneliness might be when I haven’t spent enough time with myself. I get so caught up in a working mode, whether it be projects for school, developing my side projects for my own business, or my actual day job, it is incredibly easy for me to forget I’m a person. It was such a problem that I had to set alerts on my computer’s calendar to go off ever few hours to remind myself to take a break. Before that? I could work for two days straight and get completely lost as to what day it was. Its then that I realize “shit, I need to spend some me-time otherwise I’ll start acting like that other girl I used to be years ago.”
Crazy.
So, what does it feel like to be lonely? Is it better that I don’t feel that? Or is it a bad thing that I might be missing a human emotion that so many others around me seem to be feeling?
August 22nd, 2009
I’m completely diggin’ Discovery‘s Planet Green division. They have a fantastic section on transitioning to living simply, going green, and, at the same time, saving cash.
August 9th, 2009
It is only with the heart that one can see rightly; what is essential is invisible to the eye.
A single event can awaken within us a stranger totally unknown to us. To live is to be slowly born.
It is in your act that you exist, not in your body. Your act is yourself, and there is no other you.
July 31st, 2009
I’m debating whether or not TwitterFone is a neat idea or an odd one (one sends messages to Twitter using voice).
July 25th, 2009
Tech Wrap which allows you to take just about any tech object and protect it!
Masha Vereshchenko: Pencil and ink sketches (especially from this chick) = rad
Stitch Wars: Never really been a huge Star Wars fan, but these stitchies are oh so adorable.
Neat illustrations by Andrew Bannecker
Ridiculously cool video design from Viktor & Rolf
Stereonoise
unifamiliar en A Tellada: (Architectural Photography – this one is of a fantastic “modern” treehouse)
Photographs from the 2009 Goodguys PPG Nationals: I really mostly don’t care for doing the whole “keep the photo b/w and then pick one little thing to leave in color”. That being said, I rarely care about that shit when the subjects are classic cars.
Paint splashes that were generated by sound waves and then photographed.
Anne-Julie Aubry (I love the “follow me” print – last one on the list).
An instant back and attachment has been produced for the Diana F+ camera. This means you can now print right of the thing. Like a polaroid. Woot!
Florian Witzel shows us just how he does it.
I love creative videos like this. (Non-Prophets Fresh Kinetic)
I’m a sucker for creative packaging which includes heavy doses of cuteness and colour. A cute way to display a first aid kit.
Cold Play’s video for Strawberry Swing.
A running fox in Brussels.
July 24th, 2009
20 Ways to Simplify Your Work Life = fantastic bits of advice on better ways to manage time, de-stress, and handle bullshit when it comes to one’s work life.
July 22nd, 2009
in Bb 2.0 is some crazy, creative, fucking fantastic shit. The videos can be played one at a time, if you want. But to really get a sense of this project, play them all. Simultaneously.
July 21st, 2009
** EDIT: How funny that just a day after making this post, the Multimedia Wired Up Collection is now up and available for purchase! Thanks ThinkTank! **
I’m very much looking forward to ThinkTank’s Multimedia Wired Up Collection – a collection of camera bags that accommodate a multimedia, visual journalist. That is to say, bags that allow us to carry ALL of our gear. Not just a camera but our camera, necessary lenses, sound recording equipment (including recorders, mics, headphones, etc), and video equipment. At once! The best part? It still allows us to be completely mobile (which is hugely important for me)!
Woot!
