Alive..
So…
I can’t believe its actually been this long since I’ve posted anything onto this website. I’m not sure if that means I’ve lost interest in keeping this website or if it just means I’ve grown into a different direction with it.
But to be honest, most likely its because I’ve been eyeball-deep in my work at home and at my other full time job. Its been quite crazy around here the last few months and I’m just now starting to slow down a little….great…just in time for Yule..which, undoubtedly, will creep up on me just like October did. Can someone please tell me what in the hell happened to the last six months?!
In the last few weeks, I’ve had to make a difficult decision concerning my future graduate school plans. I’d been planning, as some of you know, for the last year that this would be the year to go back to graduate school to work on photojournalism. As much as I enjoy being a sales rep at a major cell phone company (you can insert a huge sarcastic, eyeball rolling emoticon right about here), photojournalism and writing and travelling is really something I’m wanting to do. It just took me a few years to figure that out…
So, in light of that decision, a bunch of crap crept up on me at work..one of them being that I was promoted to full-time. Which is great! It means more money to save up for school and moving, more hours, and more opportunities to show everyone in the company that I mean business..and you know, a chance to show them that I really can (have and will) kick everyone’s booty. I didn’t care if they worked with me or not. Their booty was going to be kicked whether or not booties were physically there to receive the kicking.
Sometime in the middle of the year, I also started volunteering as a media person (which I have termed myself as “ms media” – kinda has a ring to it…I like it) for a co-worker who also is an R&B singer and is part of a duo with another very awesome gentleman named A.Uno. And yes, insert shameless plug here. If you’d like to take a look or a listen to their work, you can visit their site here. There are mp3 samples and a link to purchase their cd via paypal as well. You should listen, its good stuff.
So, in the midst of all of this new stuff I’ve been having to do, I also tried to do my photography portfolio for my graduate application…and..everything just sucked. I felt so disoriented and out of focus that I just couldn’t concentrate on anything. People kept telling me that things looked good or that they “liked it” but it wasn’t something I wanted to hear. Especially when WORLD CLASS photographers would be looking at my work and their entire decision would affect my chances of getting into their graduate program. I hate that bullshit most of the time but this time, it definitely affected me in a way I really didn’t care it to.
So, I postponed. I realized that I was trying to meet a deadline and my work suffered because of it. My answer? I’m going to work on this portfolio for the next year and I’m not going to think about my admission application until my portfolio is as good as I want it to be. It definitely takes the pressure off a little and I know that, at this point, I don’t have to worry about meeting a deadline that’ll be looming over my head in two months time.
If you can help it, I highly recommend a life crisis to shake you up and really kick your ass to get your shit together. Sigh.
For right now, I’m working..like a madwoman, am I working. What do I have to look forward to right now? My glass of wine, the ocassional game of Quake 3: Team Arena, the seizure-worthy waiting of the newest Xbox incarnation (which will also have Quake 4 AND Elder Scrolls: Oblivion being released for it), really good movies out in theatres again, and a 10 day vacation to Victoria, B.C coming up at the end of this month.
I really do need to get on the ball to upload all my recent writings and photos for my travel website too…goddamn I have a lot of work ahead of me..
As much as I can bitch about life sometimes, I really couldn’t be happier at all the lovely bits I have to be thankful for these days..
